Dear Dad, Grief came to me this morning. Not like it was yesterday. Not like 14 numbed by my reality - An unimaginable future without you. No, grief knocked softly, gracefully sitting beside me; Contemplation in a cup of tea. I wish I could offer her a chair, 14 year … [Read more...]
The Multitasking Myth
I've often viewed multitasking as a grand talent, even a sort of virtue. If I could juggle a hundred things in the air every day, I was winning. Winning at motherhood. Winning at womanhood. I ignored the many times I came crashing down in discouragement, frustration, or … [Read more...]
I Lost My Blog and Reclaimed My Life
I lost my blog and reclaimed my life. I've lived in chaos for a long time. I always have an excuse for the mess surrounding me: Our rental is too small, half of our things are packed up, the kids just make a mess anyway, I feel depressed, or I have work to do. Sometimes I do a … [Read more...]
Depression vs a Bad Day
Discouragement presses on my shoulders like an actual, physical weight. It pulls on my eyelids and makes me feel groggy and heavy. This is more than a bad day. This is depression. For me, depression means more than a bad day. How do I know today is depression vs a bad day? I … [Read more...]
Taking Control Back from Food
The proof was in the picture. I looked at myself, without the filter of the selfie angle, and saw the truth: I was out of control. I'd been excusing the weight gain and energy loss because of a challenging c-section a year ago. I told myself I couldn't address my weight while … [Read more...]
