Dear Dad, Grief came to me this morning. Not like it was yesterday. Not like 14 numbed by my reality - An unimaginable future without you. No, grief knocked softly, gracefully sitting beside me; Contemplation in a cup of tea. I wish I could offer her a chair, 14 year … [Read more...]
What Can We Do After the Cincinnati Zoo Incident?
What if it was me at the Cincinnati Zoo? I watched in horror as my son fell into the moat. He slipped past me so fast, yet it felt like slow motion; agonizing second after second as his fingers slipped from mine. What if this was me? I heard myself let out a primal … [Read more...]
Christmas Past and Christmas Present
Three pairs of children's shoes all lined up in a row. Small gifts inside indicate the arrival of the Christmas season, repeating a tradition cherished since my childhood. I could hardly wait to set out my shoes each year. Sinterklass leaving toys in tiny … [Read more...]
20 Years
I wore your hat the other day. My son looked at me funny, so I put it at a jaunty angle and thought of you. I still slip on your socks sometimes. They're completely worn in the heels and never really fit in my shoes, but they were yours. Corduroy patches, tacky Hawaiin … [Read more...]
What You Left Unsaid
Lately, I've been thinking about how your mortality became painfully clear not much older than I am now. The dreaded "c" word answered the fears about your mysterious pains with a larger fear and a more frightening unknown: cancer. I've lived longer without you physically … [Read more...]
