I wore your hat the other day.
My son looked at me funny, so I put it at a jaunty angle
and thought of you.
I still slip on your socks sometimes.
They’re completely worn in the heels
and never really fit in my shoes,
but they were yours.
Corduroy patches,
tacky Hawaiin shirts,
distinguished mustaches,
old spice,
and model airplanes;
All remind me of you.
My husband has a three piece suit
just to appease me.
When he puts on the vest,
I imagine yours.
Looking through old photographs,
I time travel to Christmas in Seattle 1984.
We’re standing outside the window of Frederick and Nelson,
my hand up against the glass, your hand up against mine,
magically moving the train.
It’s the best day ever.
I can’t go there now to relive the moment.
Frederick and Nelson is long gone.
So are you.
14 years of my life here.
20 years gone.
Memories wash over me.
So real sometimes
it hurts to open my eyes.
I see my friend’s fathers,
about the same age you would be
and I try to image you at 67,
mustache freckled with grey.
I talk with them and I wish I was talking with you.
I wish I was talking with you.
I miss you.
(((hugs))) to you and sending uplifting vibes on such a tough day for you, Mindy. 🙁 I’m so sorry for the loss of your father. No matter how fresh or old the wound, a father is something you never stop missing I’m sure. Thinking of you. Beautiful words to remember him.
(((hugs))) to you and sending uplifting vibes on such a tough day for you, Mindy. 🙁 I’m so sorry for the loss of your father. No matter how fresh or old the wound, a father is something you never stop missing I’m sure. Thinking of you. Beautiful words to remember him.
I know that there are no words that I could say that could relieve your pain, but I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
So glad you have so many good memories. So sorry for the pain of your loss.
We’re blessed to have so many happy memories with our fathers. Though the sadness can be painful at times, I always think of the joyous reunion we will have someday. What a blessing we have in the hope of eternal life and reuniting with our loved ones lost.
Keeping you in thought and prayer. <3
I don’t think the missing stops, but especially when they are lost way too soon. Thoughts and prayers to you Mindy.
Btw, I miss that train. I have memories of going downtown every year and eagerly seeking out the place to put my hand…
I wish I could hug you through the computer. Beautifully written. Thank you for sharing your memories.
Thinking and praying for you. Anniversaries of loved ones dying are always hard.
This was so moving! You’re a wonderful writer! Thank you for sharing!